THE LADYBUG GANG: Chemotherapy- Round 11

SO happy to have round 11 done! It was a doozie!

LadyBug's chemo appointment this month was scheduled nice and early... So we packed up our favorite friends and headed up to the hospital.

Amazingly there was no traffic so we got up to the hospital a little earlier than expected. So we grabbed some breakfast smoothies and settled in to watch the light show in the lobby- always LadyBug's favorite!

After breakfast we headed up to Oncology. LadyBug's got this routine down... We get her blood pressure checked. Temperature checked. And then her height and weight measurements. Then... we play! The first part of the morning is all check-ups and chatting with mommy and daddy so LadyBug grabs some toys and plays with all the new and exciting things. She's pretty spoiled up there so this is probably her favorite part of the day!

Then things changed.... About 5 minutes after we snapped this picture all hell broke loose. Chemo has finally, after 11 months won the battle. Our poor girl went through about 15 tortorous minutes of throwing up, gagging, and throwing up some more. After 11 months of thinking we've finally got this routine down the biggest wrench was tossed into the mix. Our poor baby was throwing up like crazy and all we could do was stand there in complete and utter confusion. In 11 months nothing like this had ever happened- we had NO clue what to do! We were kind of Frozen in fear. I think we were both ready to grab her and take off running! She was sick and we couldn't do anything to help her. We had no extra cloths, the iPad was covered, everything was a mess! I think the entire thing caught LadyBug by surprise as well... After about 15 minutes of constant sickness she finally caught a little break and just burst into tears. Everyone around her was hustling to get her cleaned up, her doctors were paged, and the nurses were quickly getting us moved over to a clean spot... All the craziness just seemed to scare her even more. In the midst of the craziness LadyBug looked up at me and with the saddest face said "I'm sorry mommy". Holding it together at that point flew right out the window. Tears just flooded from my eyes... Here she is going through complete torture and she's apologizing to me! The unfairness of the entire situation just broke me, shattered my heart into a million pieces. Here we were so close to the finish line and everything seemed to be spinning out of our control...

Because of the allergic reaction and now the puking the chemo infusion was slowed way down and we had a few more hours added to our day. So, we snuggled up and enjoyed one of her favorite movies.